Work was super crazy last week. I won't bore you all with the gory details, but I'm hoping it will be calmer in the coming weeks. I have scheduled to take my exam for Hawaii licensure, so my focus needs to be on preparing for that over the next three weeks. Yes, only three weeks. *Gulp* So posting may be few and far between now and May 21st, unless I start to feel uncharacteristically confident, or I just feel like procrastinating, like I am now.
As far as Richard and I go...well things could be better. Work has been really crazy for him too. Over the last two weeks we haven't spent more than a few hours of quality time together. He frequently works late, but the nights have been getting longer and longer. This past Thursday he got home from work at 1am Friday morning and was up again at 3:30am to head back into the office. I have expressed my concern for his mental and physical health, but I am also starting to feel resentful. I'm trying really hard not to though. I know how demanding his job is, and I need to focus on my work and my studying. I'm really trying to focus on studying, so having him gone is actually a blessing, but it is hard to see it that way. It is easy enough for me to distract myself without him here. Sadly, the fact remains that I do distract myself, with or without him here, so I would much prefer to have him here! At least then I would have a good excuse to not be studying! The bottom line is that I just miss him when he isn't around. He leaves again tomorrow for the mainland again for a week. I hope I take advantage of the time and get lots of studying done. I also hope I can sleep okay without him here and I also really hope that I don't sit around moping instead of studying while he is away. I really thought that we were done with all the missing.
The great part about us though is that we slip right back into place with each other. When he came home early (around 6) on Friday I had the saddest feeling when he first walked through the door that we were becoming strangers. I was surprised to see him so early, and then I felt sad that 6pm on a Friday is "early." We hadn't really talked in about a week but after settling in we got caught up with each other and had a nice night together. So although sometimes it feels like we are just passing ships, when we are finally docked together everything is peaceful in our worlds and I appreciate that, no matter how shortly it lasts.
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