I think part of my reluctance to write recently has mostly been lack of content. Moreover, lack of positive content. The honeymoon is definitely over, sad to say. I think we got a good five months out of it though, minus the very stressful moving time where we wanted to assassinate each other.
With the honeymoon over, we have slipped into the rut of everyday life together. Life consists of work, chores, sleep, repeat. Nothing tragic, just life. Repetitive, boring life. The bliss of domestic union and stability that so many people crave. I'm grateful for it, but I have found myself missing my more independent life recently. I come home from work and spend usually about two hours by myself. Those precious hours are usually spent doing chores. Chores that I was able to do on the weekend relatively quickly when it was just me. Once all these various annoyances are complete, we eat dinner together, and it's bed time. We might have a little time to read together, which I always enjoy. We haven't watched a movie together on a week night in probably months, let alone do anything slightly more exciting.
I have tried to find a balance between coupledom and the independent self I have been missing. This is hard to navigate, and I think coming out of an LDR makes it more complicated. I often still would prefer to spend time with Richard, after spending two years apart, but his work schedule makes that difficult. So I have tried to find a life for myself here, making and spending time with new friends rather than time alone at home. However, when these opportunities arise, the home duties get neglected. Last week I went to the movies with a co-worker and came home pretty late, which earned me the silent treatment when I slipped into bed and the next morning. Obviously that wasn't fair, and luckily he got over the slight he felt quickly, but it was food for thought for me about our dynamic and about our transition from LDR to non-distant relationship/cohabitation.
I think that I have gone from complaining about one situation to complaining about the other. I have contracted Richard's The Grass is Always Greener Syndrome. My focus for the immediate future will be to find more balance. I also need to find a way to not get exasperated by the monotony of everyday life.
But first, I have a large list of chores to do to prepare for his parent's arrival next week! They will be staying with us for three weeks, so there will be another long hiatus from blog updates, but I'm sure I will have lots to say after that! So until then, time to enjoy these green pastures.
